By Lynn Cowell
In chapter five of "His Revolutionary Love" I encourage you to go after God hard. I encourage you to develop a history with God which creates a strength that can only come through experience in trusting Jesus.
One of the post powerful stories that created history with God in my life came when I was 18.
My first "love" was a boy from my church; I was only in 6th grade...yeah, 6th grade! Our moms were best friends; it just seemed like the perfect fit from the time I met him. The crush that started young lasted for seven years; he never reciprocated. Somehow, I just knew, though, that he was the one for me.
After high school, I went on to a Bible training school. At this school, I discovered that the love of a lifetime, the soul mate that I was looking for was Jesus. I had grown up hearing he was my shepherd, savior, best friend...but no one ever told me that He wanted to be the love of my life. As I began to study His word, specifically looking for the way He loved me, my heart began to be filled up. The loneliness and fear that I would never find the "right" one began to go away as I grasped hold of the truth that Jesus was the Right One. During this time, I committed to spending my time at school not dating so that I could focus on the true love of my life.
Guess who should call me during that time? Yep...Greg! He was coming a 1,000 miles from our home and wanted to come and see me. I was so elated! Finally, the desires of my heart were going to come true. That is until my counselor pointed out to me that I had committed myself to not dating. I was so torn! I just knew if I passed this opportunity up I would never find someone so perfect for me like Greg was (let alone Greg himself!).
I decided to trust God. I decided that I would go after God as He was coming after me.
I called Greg and told him he couldn't come and visit because I was committing this time in my life to focusing on Jesus. He said he understood. Then he began writing me notes that were filled with scripture; words for me from the Lord. I love it! But once again, I knew my heart was becoming attached where it shouldn't so I told him to stop writing me as well. I just can't tell how much it pained me and how scared I was that I was giving up the best thing.
I honored God during that season. After school was over, I went home to visit my parents. Greg was in church that night. He saw me and asked me out. I knew it was ok; my heart was fixed on Jesus. We were married a year later and tonight we are going to celebrate being married for 24 years.
I know that Jesus had me "lay Greg down" so that I could find Jesus to be my one true love. You see, now I don't look to Greg to fill my heart; to make me happy. Jesus is still and always will be my first love and Greg is an amazing, God-honoring second.
This is the type of heartJesus calls us to; a heart that wants Jesus more than we want anything else...a career, the love of our friends, the attention of a boyfriend, or anything else. Nothing comes before Him and we want nothing more than Him. As you go after Jesus, He's worth it!